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Forgive me, dear ex. Sunday, 25 November 2012 @ 21:13 Hi. S H A L O M Dear ex, sorry kalau saya ada buat silap time kita masih sama-sama lagi. Sorry saya tidak text kau, tidak layan kau, marah kau, tidak jujur kadang-kadang. I am still in love with you walaupun saya sayang kau tidak macam saya sayang kau dulu. Ex, forgive me for all the mistakes and the stupid actions I've made when we are still together. Walaupun mungking kita tidak akan sama-sama lagi, I still love you like my own brother. Yes, not special anymore. I am stupid because dulu time kau propose saya, I say, "I need time to think." and kau kasih saya masa untuk fikir. I love you even more everyday walaupun dengan perangai kau yang bikin panas tu. I am stupid enough for my entire life sebab saya terima kau, sebab kalau saya tidak terima kau, things won't be like this. Sorry. You hope I will get a better boyrfriend than you? Oh man. Seriously, I don't want to have another and another and another boyfriend. Penat sudah saya melayan lelaki. Lebih baik saya layan orang yang selalu ada di samping saya, Tuhan, family and friends. Lebih baik begitu. I hope your next girlfriend would be better than me. I think you need a girl to comfort you when there's nobody who cares. But saya tahu itu bukan saya. I am not professional on comforting people because I'm just that complicated. Saya kasih putus ni hubungan pun sebab kebaikan kau dengan saya. Firstly, I don't think I want a boyfriend now. When we first dated, yes I want a boyrfriend, like you. But no, now. Secondly, for me I am still young and very young indeed. There's millions of things waiting for me to be explore. Thirdly, I am not suitable for you. Now I know, we are not meant to be. We just didn't need each other. But we do love each other. It's so different. Fourthly, I know you love doing what you want. That's why I let you go. I want you to be a freedom boy that can do anything and everything without his girlfriend controlling him. And, I don't want when we broke up 10 months later, you'll be sadder than you are now. (But I don't know if you really are sad right now) I let you fo, for you. For your best. I know after this, we couldn't get that close, but I am trying to be your friend, not friend, but your best friend. I've been hoping for you to get a better life and now I know that when I let you go, your life gets better. Our relationship will never get better. We did not love each other, (but I do, as your sister. Not more than that) it is very awkward when we communicate, we didn't need each other, we had enough. Why would we went to a relationship if the relationship goes so rough? Ex, I am so sorry for my mistakes and I hope you can get a better girlfriend, a better life and we can be friends like how we used to. -M A R I L Y N- 0 Comments: Post a Comment older post ► ◄ newer post	Home About Stuff eMail I'm not the prettiest, but you know what? I'm fabulous. Hardcore EXO fangirl. I love reading all those stuffs. LABEL exo fangirl feelz Contact Here's the links to my social media sites. I'm not always the follow-me-follow-you-back type of person but notify me for a followback! i'm friendly, of course. Advertisements
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Forgive me, dear ex.

Sunday, 25 November 2012 @ 21:13

Hi.

S H A L O M

Dear ex, sorry kalau saya ada buat silap time kita masih sama-sama lagi. Sorry saya tidak text kau, tidak layan kau, marah kau, tidak jujur kadang-kadang. I am still in love with you walaupun saya sayang kau tidak macam saya sayang kau dulu. Ex, forgive me for all the mistakes and the stupid actions I've made when we are still together. Walaupun mungking kita tidak akan sama-sama lagi, I still love you like my own brother. Yes, not special anymore. I am stupid because dulu time kau propose saya, I say, "I need time to think." and kau kasih saya masa untuk fikir. I love you even more everyday walaupun dengan perangai kau yang bikin panas tu. I am stupid enough for my entire life sebab saya terima kau, sebab kalau saya tidak terima kau, things won't be like this. Sorry. You hope I will get a better boyrfriend than you? Oh man. Seriously, I don't want to have another and another and another boyfriend. Penat sudah saya melayan lelaki. Lebih baik saya layan orang yang selalu ada di samping saya, Tuhan, family and friends. Lebih baik begitu. I hope your next girlfriend would be better than me. I think you need a girl to comfort you when there's nobody who cares. But saya tahu itu bukan saya. I am not professional on comforting people because I'm just that complicated.

Saya kasih putus ni hubungan pun sebab kebaikan kau dengan saya. Firstly, I don't think I want a boyfriend now. When we first dated, yes I want a boyrfriend, like you. But no, now. Secondly, for me I am still young and very young indeed. There's millions of things waiting for me to be explore. Thirdly, I am not suitable for you. Now I know, we are not meant to be. We just didn't need each other. But we do love each other. It's so different. Fourthly, I know you love doing what you want. That's why I let you go. I want you to be a freedom boy that can do anything and everything without his girlfriend controlling him. And, I don't want when we broke up 10 months later, you'll be sadder than you are now. (But I don't know if you really are sad right now) I let you fo, for you. For your best. I know after this, we couldn't get that close, but I am trying to be your friend, not friend, but your best friend. I've been hoping for you to get a better life and now I know that when I let you go, your life gets better.

Our relationship will never get better. We did not love each other, (but I do, as your sister. Not more than that) it is very awkward when we communicate, we didn't need each other, we had enough. Why would we went to a relationship if the relationship goes so rough?

Ex, I am so sorry for my mistakes and I hope you can get a better girlfriend, a better life and we can be friends like how we used to.

-M A R I L Y N-

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